[12/30/2002 8:35:33 PM | Angeline Huang]
*cough cough* *sneeze sneeze* being sick sux.
Anywaiz, know what I realized today, I go back to school this weekend. ewwww, well not really ewww, cause I like being away at school, I just don't like classes, hehe. And I think i need to do some tweaking with my schedule that i've kinda avoided.
Also, my goal was to learn flash over winter break, and I haven't opened the program all break! Must get to crackin on that!

[12/27/2002 8:22:56 PM | Angeline Huang]
Spent the day cleaning and looking at internships online. Finally broke through the UCSD Career Center site.
Found 2 internships that I want sooooooo badly.
One of them is my dream internship, it's everything i've ever wished for and wanted. An all expense paid summer internship in New York sponsored by CosmoGirl magazine where I would be working in advertising. Hopefully working on my graphic skills some more, incorporating art and business, which is exactly what I'm studying in school right there. There are other things you can go into, but that is what I would want to do. But there are only 5 spots, so it's highly highly competitive and I need a recommendation from a teacher, which will probably be a problem. But man, I just want this so badly, so badly I know i'm going to be dreaming and daydreaming about it for weeks to come.
Then the other is working for the academy of arts and sciences in LA, where you just have the opportunity to do so many things, one of them being computer animation, and that one too is highly competitive.
Everyone start praying for me!

[12/27/2002 11:14:15 AM | Angeline Huang]
just because someone gives life to u, why do they feel that that entitles them to treat you however way they want? Anytime my mom starts bitching at me, that's what she uses. "I gave you life, I can do whatever I want, you have to listen to me."
Though what probably pisses me off the most is when she goes "you're not 2 years old anymore, you're 20 years old, start acting like an adult." That's great, maybe if she started treating me like an adult and allowed me to make my own decisions and stopped trying to control me like a 2 year old, I could maybe start acting like one.
Yeah I know I whine a lot about my "mother," but last night I was about ready to just walk out the door. I HATE being in this house, absolutely hate it, I dread weekends, I dread breaks, I dread being here. I can't stand the way she treats me, I've been understanding for so long and it's just getting to me so much now. Growing up, I've had things happen to me that just aren't suppose to happen to kids growing up. My mom and her collections of boyfriends, her lying cheating scheming ways, her boyfriends living at our house, treating me the way they do. Using me to try to get closer to my mom or for their own needs. I think this house just holds too many bad memories for me, memories that someone at the age of 20 just should not have.

[12/25/2002 9:39:53 PM | Angeline Huang]
Talk about a xmas from hell.
Woke up, went online, watched TV. Yeah I lead a sad life, then my mom decided she wanted to go to the casino. Me, since I wasn't driving, and wasn't planning and spending much money, decided i didn't need my wallet. Now I got money for xmas, yet my mom says I have to put it in the bank and won't let me spend it, yet she wanted me to take that money and gamble with it. Someone explain the logic in that? Anywaiz, so we drive lik 45 mins to an hour to the casino, and when we get there the security guy decides to card me, only I don't have a ID card with me. So my mom starts yelling at him, then takes it up with the manager, trying to get me through and all, and they won't budge. So I said, its okay you guys go gamble and i'll sit in the car. So I sat in the car, while they gambled, then 30 mins later she decides to try again and the same security guy tries to stop me from going in so my mom yells at him some more. Didn't work so I go sit in the car some more. 15 mins later they come out and they're bitching and whining, my mom didn't get to play her blackjack cause seh was too busy at the slots, which she never plays. And I know the 2 of them are secretly cursing me for "ruining" their day. Like how the hell was I suppose to konw I needed ID, and why bring something if you don't need it. So we went back to my mom's friend's place, had dinner there and I went into another room to watch TV cause there was nothing else to do. Where I saw my Lakers yet again blow the lead and another game. *shrug* even going into today, it just didn't feel like xmas, might as well just put it in as another day in the life of Ange.

[12/24/2002 1:14:52 AM | Angeline Huang]
Note: Two Weeks Notice is a very cute movie. I mean sure it's unbelievable, and things like that just don't happen in real life, but isn't that what movies are for? I mean who really goes to see movies cause they want to see something that happens in everyday life. It was a very cute movie though, Sandra and Hugh make a good team. Since its dec, the movie should be out come June 27th? hint hint
Never go to Costco 2 days before christmas, it was so crowded. Coldstone ice cream just isn't as good once you've had Mootime, I shouldn't even be having ice cream rite now. So many big dinners and fattening get togethers coming up and I have to go to the doctors in a week, ah, the nightmare.

[12/22/2002 11:33:49 AM | Angeline Huang]
I got to cry myself to sleep last nite, lucky me. Mom had another fight with Jeff, so she was in a pissy mood and again took it out on me. Started yelling at me to go to sleep cause you know, not sleeping is why I have pimples. And started ranting and raving, it's getting rather tiring. So tired of her taking out her messed up relationships out on me. Why do I have to suffer cause she doesn't know how to have a normal relationship.
Then i just started thinking about my future, my friends are all thinking about their GREs and I just feel like i'm so behind. Do I really wanna go to grad school? I mean obviously I should, but to this day I still don't think I know what I want. Everyone has such high goals, me, I just wanna live my comfortable life, have a simple 9-5 job. I don't really care about the money, the big jobs, etc. I dunno, maybe I have low expectations for myself, probably cause I just never really expect much from myself. But I know my mom won't be happy with that, she wants me to make the big bucks, it's all about money to her. I just wanna be comfortable and happy, I see lots of families or people that don't make the big salaries and they get by fine and are happy. Maybe I do know what I want, but I'm just too scared to go get it, cause I know no matter how hard I try to live my own life, there is always someone pushing me back wanting me to live the life they want me to life, and that's my mother. Sure she wants the best for me, but shouldn't I know what's best for myself? If i fail fine, but at least it's my own failure, my own decisions. Can't she just be there for support, not for control?

[12/21/2002 11:45:05 PM | Angeline Huang]
Why is it raining so much in San Diego? It's san diego! it's suppose to be sunny.
Did so much driving together, I forgot to return MK to blockbuster so I had to drive back to UCSD and return it. So I ran some errands today, post office, bank, finished up my shopping, went to UCSD. Went searching through 3 savons to find a Kodak Picture Maker that actually worked.
Brownie Obsessions at TGIF are good, but damn they are fattening. I feel so fat, lol.

[12/20/2002 2:01:58 PM | Angeline Huang]
Argh, I got a B in ICAM. I thought I would have a least gotten a B+/A- in that class. That kinda just screws up my GPA cause I though I would have 2 As to even out 2 Cs, cause I know i'm going to get a C in Econ 120A if I'm lucky. Argh, the frustrations.

[12/20/2002 11:40:07 AM | Angeline Huang]
This is great. I was IMing kath to tell her to slap charlotte, so Kath IMed charlotte and got her dad:
BassGrl127: BassGrl127: IceCream627: go slap charlotte
BassGrl127: um...
BassGrl127: from 3000 miles away?
VULCAN82: Sorry, This is Char's daddy, i forgot to swich back to my own sreen. Whoever you are, Merry X'mas

[12/20/2002 2:36:46 AM | Angeline Huang]
I passed Econ! Well one of my econ classes, dunno about the other one day. C- baby! lol, that's so sad that i'm happy about it. Just glad i passed and am done with that class. I don't think I should bother taking the B of it next quarter, cause for a minor I don't need to do a sequence, so I should take something more interesting, which means I have to revamp my schedule and all that good stuff. But that actually takes effort, which im just too lazy to put up with rite now.
Charlotte and Stephen came to UCSD today, we had dinner at good ole greasy KFC, played DDR, and I subjected Charlotte to A Walk To Remember. To which she spent more time making fun of during the movie rather than WATCHING it. Then we watched Lilo and Stitch, I just love that movie. So many good lines, so cute, I want a Stitch, hehe. Ah good times good times.

[12/18/2002 12:05:34 AM | Angeline Huang]
I just found this and it's hilarious:
Ten ways to piss off ur roommate
10) Collect potatoes. Paint faces on them and give them names. Name one after your roommate. Separate your roommate's potato from the others. Wait a few days, and then bake your roommate's potato and eat it. Explain to your roommate, ''He just didn't belong.''
9) Move everything to one side of the room. Ask your roommate if he knows how much an elephant weighs, and look at the floor on the empty side of the room with concern.
8) Draw a tiny black line on your nose. Make it bigger every day. Look at it and say, ''The hair, it's growing. Growing!''
7) Buy some knives. Sharpen them every night. While you're doing so, look at your roommate and mutter, ''Soon, soon....''
6) Collect hundreds of pens and pile them on one side of the room. Keep one pencil on the other side of the room. Laugh at the pencil.
5) Tell your roommate, ''I've got an important message for you.'' Then pretend to faint. When you recover, say you can't remember what the message was. Later on, say, ''Oh, yeah, I remember!'' Pretend to faint again. Keep this up for several weeks.
4) While your roommate is out, glue your shoes to the ceiling. When your roommate walks in, sit on the floor, hold your head, and moan.
3) Make a sandwich. Don't eat it, leave it on the floor. Ignore the sandwich. Wait until your roommate gets rid of it, and then say, ''Hey, where the heck is my sandwich!?'' Complain loudly that you are hungry.
2) Every time your roommate walks in yell, ''Hooray! You're back!'' as loud as you can and dance around the room for five minutes. Afterwards, keep looking at your watch and saying, ''Shouldn't you be going somewhere?''
1) Talk back to your Rice Krispies. All of a sudden, act offended, throw the bowl on the floor and kick it. Refuse to clean it up, explaining, ''No, I want to watch them suffer.'''

[12/17/2002 9:33:54 PM | Angeline Huang]
So much for "gonna start flash today," lol. But I DID go to the library and check out books. And spent today at work, got yummy food hehe, made some artk and did lots of work on this page, so it wasn't a complete waste. Meant to work on a layout for another website, but then photoshop kept crashing my computer, as always.
Remember I had gotten a new toy? I finally uploaded pictures from the new toy, all in the photos section. As well as added some cd covers I made.
CD Covers
new pics one two three four

[12/16/2002 11:31:09 PM | Angeline Huang]
is this not one of the most adorable things u've ever seen? They look so in love. Sigh, i want a boyfriend...
And my roommate is singing "angeline...angeline...angeline...angeline...angeline..." um yeah...

[12/16/2002 8:59:12 PM | Angeline Huang]
Impulse buying is bad, but so damn fun, lol. I spent too much money today, everytime I have money, it just keeps disappearing.
Almost finished my xmas shopping though, just a couple more things to do, and some more money to spent. Just a relax day driving around shopping, tomorrow I get on the flash thing.
I got a 2nd PS2 controller, an extension cable, and CD case plus a free game rental at Blockbuster today for 19.99, it was a really good deal, I just couldn't resist. I mean a controller in itself is already 14.99 or more, so to pay $5 more for a CD case and a free rental, which in itself is 5.99. So yeah, couldn't resist a good deal. I just hope I don't end up getting another controller for xmas.
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[12/16/2002 11:14:55 AM | Angeline Huang]
I have decided that alcohol is stupid. I can get the same effects without alcohol (so maybe i'm drunk 24/7?), and I don't get the sickness feel afterwards. I don't feel hungover or anything, cause personally I still don't think I was really that drunk or anything. But afterwards my stomach did feel sick, no throwup or anything, but it just felt icky. I don't even like the taste of alcohol anywaiz, so like, it's all rather dumb and useless to me. But hey, at least I tried it.
Moving away from the alcohol, I brought my roomies with me home this weekend, and my roommate met charlotte, and they sang together. Yeah, it was very interesting. We played PS2, watched movies, they played with my doggies, protected me from my mommy. And as usual, my mom put on the "must be nice in front of people" facade. But it was all fun nonetheless. And now I get to stay until friday in my apartment, just going to work, and trying to learn flash.
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[12/16/2002 12:55:23 AM | Angeline Huang]
I don't get it. Everyone in college raves about alcohol and how cool it is and the effects of it. I had 4 shots of schnaps and I feel fine. I mean i got a bit hyper and giggly, but I'm always hyper and giggly when i wanna be, so I couldn't tell the difference. *shrug* well i can now say tried it, but it's not all people say it is.

[12/14/2002 2:52:36 AM | Angeline Huang]
lol, look at what this site said about my name:
Your name of Ange makes you very idealistic and generous, with the strong desire to uplift humanity leading you into situations where you can express your desire to serve others. You want to assume responsibilities and to look after people; however, you can become too involved in other people's problems and tend to worry. Your name gives you a natural desire to express along artistic and musical lines. You desire a settled home and family life, and are expressive and attentive to your loved ones. You must be careful not to become possessive and jealous of those close to you, however, as you could attract losses and unfortunate experiences. If you attach an ideal of service to your life, you could find great happiness and could express a very beautiful, happy, responsible, artistic, and generous nature. The weakness of this name is in worry, which in turn affects the nervous system, creating a tendency to be highly strung or over-sensitive to the thoughts of others.
Doesn't sound like me at all, does it?

[12/14/2002 12:17:36 AM | Angeline Huang]
back from my first concert experience! Tori Amos is a cool chick, she kept playing and playing, nonstop. She'd finish a show and went directly to the next. And then when she finished, she ran off stage and people just kept clapping and clapping, she came back, did 3 numbers, ran off again, and then came back again and did another 3 numbers. She must not get tired easily.
I kinda wish I was a bit more educated on her music though. I mean I knew her name, but i didn't really know her music, so people were cheering and clapping and I had no idea why some songs got more cheers than others, etc.
Overall it was fun, and I finally got to go to a concert, and seats were pretty good too, considering they were free.
I took a bunch of pics, didn't come out that well, but here they are nonetheless.

[12/13/2002 12:52:36 AM | Angeline Huang]
I love having no finals, just having the freedom to do anything, nothing. no stress, no nothing.
I'm watching this bubblegum pop special VH1 had, and it kinda just depressed me, cause it just made me realize so much more that Mandy is never gonna make it as a singer. They were talking about flesh baring, controversial pop singer girls, and obviously Mandy just doesn't fit in that mold, so they had a hard time featuring her. So it's like, those who hate pop don't like mandy cause they think she's just pop. Those who like pop dont like mandy cause she's not pop enough. And because of that, she doesn't get recognition as a singer. I think it's just sad cause I think she's a really nice girl and deserves more than she gets. Yeah okay, i'll stop sounding like a teeny bopper now.

[12/11/2002 3:00:03 PM | Angeline Huang]
I'm done! no more finals no more finals!
did i pass them all? no. Do i care anymore? no. Just so happy to be done. And friday nite I get to go to a concert! I wanted to try to do something cool for my roommate though, but i couldn't make it happen :( Must be all the psycho stalkers that make celebrities afraid to meet their fans.

[12/10/2002 2:21:50 PM | Angeline Huang]
I couldn't resist, this was just too good:
Jay Leno joked during his Tonight Show monologue on Monday, "Christina Aguilera says she wants to try acting. She says she is looking at movie scripts now, and she says she's willing to do a scene with clothes on only if it's an integral part of the story."

[12/10/2002 1:57:28 PM | Angeline Huang]
Why why WHY do teachers have to mislead you. I mean as if finals aren't bad enough as it is, why is it professor tell you to study This, and test you on That!? Just finished my stats final and it sucked! The teacher had previous versions of finals on the class website and the 2 previous versions looked almost literally the same, so of course I think, well the final will be like that as well. I mean our midterm was the same format and type of questions as the previous midterms he had on the website, so it just seemed natural the final would be like that too. So I did all the problems sets again, checked my answers, did the practice finals on the website, checked those answered, made my 1 page of notes from the practice finals. And when I get to the final, the final given looks nothing like what was on the website and my cheat sheet barely helped me at all. So frustrating, argh.

[12/9/2002 8:50:15 PM | Angeline Huang]
I'm done with finals! oh wait, nevamind, that was me daydreaming.
I did just get back from my first final though, just glad it was over. It wasn't too bad, or maybe cause i just didn't care much. I could essentially get a 75% on the final and still get an A in the class, so I wasn't worried too much. Now on to the real finals, tomorrow's shouldn't be too bad, it's stats and I get a 1 page cheat sheet, so I just need to like print out all the midterms and finals and know them all and all that fun stuff. Wednesday's is the one i'm really worried about.

[12/8/2002 10:48:46 PM | Angeline Huang]
I am SOOOOOOOO full. I went to have dinner with my mom and her friends (where she made me wait 45 mins before she arrived). We had hotpot at Emerald, which was all you can eat. And my goodness, I ate sooooooo much, and i'm soooooo full. It's like 4 hours laters, and I'm STILL full.
When I came home, I brought my roomies back Boba, and then we all went out for ice cream. I didn't get any though, cause I was too full, but man, seeing all that ice cream, I so wanted some, but my tummy said "no more."
I am DONE with housemate xmas shopping, makes me happy to be done. Well almost done, there's still a couple things I need to do, but i'm pretty much done, so that makes me happy. I love wrapping gifts, i dunno why, I just like wrapping, yeah i'm weird, I know.

[12/8/2002 1:58:22 PM | Angeline Huang]
Drunk people are funny. One of my friends (who shall remain anonymous) called me last nite, and she was so drunk it was funny. She didn't even realize who she was talking to. I've never like really had encounters with drunk people, so it was very amusing to me. Kinda made me wanna go and get drunk, lol.

[12/8/2002 1:17:38 AM | Angeline Huang]
I'm so horrible. I didn't get any studying done at all. argh, I hate myself.
And another thing, why are teachers so ambigiuous when you asked them stuff:
"There aren't "current grades". I only give a letter
grade to the total accumation of points. You have
roughly 75% of all points so far, which is about the
class average. It the average of the final is also 75,
then 75% would be about a "C". Of course, the average
of the final may be much more or less."
What the heck does that mean? anyone?

[12/7/2002 3:49:00 PM | Angeline Huang]
So the quarter is over, and finals are next, argh.
Yesterday was an interesting day, I'm gonna miss my ICAM 40 class, not the class persay, but the people in it and the labs. Cause labs were fun, and we all got along and hung out, and it was just fun to go there on a friday, having only that section that day. So yesterday afternoon, a few of us met at the pub and hung out, they were all having beers and I wasn't. I felt so young, lol.
Then last nite, my roomies and I went xmas shopping. We spent a lot of time at Costco, I really love costco. Then at like 11, we went to cheesecake factory. Only we hadn't ate in like forever, so by that time we were all delirious and everything just seemed REALLY funny. I was falling asleep as I was driving home, and once I got home, I literally almost just passed out.
Alrite, now time to get to studying. Almost done with my xmas shopping, done with my housemates, almost done with friends.
oh and one last thing: Happy 21st Bday Kath!

[12/7/2002 3:07:38 PM | Angeline Huang]
Decided to do something different with my blog. Instead of always HTMLing and uploading my entries, i'm gonna use blogger now. This way I can make entries anytime I want without doing HTML, and I can edit my blog with HTML as well, that way I can still keep my website as is. Plus, it gives me the comments feature, which I like.
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