My second attempt at vector art, i'd show the first, but it suckith muchith. Can you guess who it is?
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[2/28/2003 2:37:46 PM | Angeline Huang]
Sitting in class, wow, this class is boring.
Sigh,so it's going to be march soon, 9th week of the quarter is going to start
soon. Which means Spring Quarter will start soon, then summer, then senior year.
After that, it's time to get a job. Sigh, i'm alomst 21 years old, going to
graduate college in another year, and I don't think even I know quite what I
want to do yet. I mean I have dreams, but then I also have to be realistic. And
of course there is my mother stopping me in my paths, sometimes I wish I could
just say, "screw you, leave me alone, this is my path not yours," but
for some reason, I just don't have the heart or courage perhaps, to say that to
her.
I might be able to get an internship at Sony Music this summer, it won't be
paying, but I think it would be a good experience, and perhaps leads to
something bigger when I graduate? Or at least I hope, but then again I don't
know if it's just a pipe dream, can I really make a career out of working in a
record company. Will it be "acceptable" to my mom?
I just feel like everyone (my mom, my entire family) has all these dreams and
wishes riding on me, which aren't my own wishes, and if I go after my own wishes
it won't be acceptable to anyone and i'll disappoint everyone. I've pretty much
come to the conclusion that I will be poor when I come out of college, my mom
has these dreams that I'll come out, find a great job with a 80,000 starting
salry, and be a millionaire by the time i'm 30. I know that most likely won't
happen, and i'm ready to struggle the first few years, but then my mom has put
these illusions into my family as well, so if i do anything less than what they
expect, i'll be a disappointment. "Oh Angeline got to come to america and
nobody else did, and look what she's done with it, she's accomplished
nothing."
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[2/28/2003 11:48:17 AM | Angeline Huang]
My second attempt at vector art, i'd show the first, but it suckith muchith. Can
you guess who it is?
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[2/26/2003 10:10:37 PM | Angeline Huang]
vector art is annoying, yes, yes it is.
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[2/26/2003 4:58:39 PM | Angeline Huang]
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
why is it you review and review, and go over the homework and practice midterms,
then when you get to the test, look at the question that emulates a homework
question YOU BLANK OUT AND FORGET EVERYTHING!
I KNEW how to do it, i KNEW the processes, I just couldn't remember the damn
equation to START the processes. And then course there is only 3 questions, so
if you forget one of them you're SCREWED!
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[2/25/2003 7:42:02 PM | Angeline Huang]
mandy moore is a dork, lol. yep, she has apparantly dubbed me "ms. angela,"
why? i have no idea.
anywaiz, econ 120b midterm tomorrow, eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk 
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[2/24/2003 12:54:58 AM | Angeline Huang]
Everyone go see Shanghai Knights, oh and see How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days (and
if you see it in the theaters, make sure to catch the trailers before hand).
Both good movies, funny, better than I expected for both.
And other then sunday night, the weekend pretty much sucked. Had another run in
with my mom, as always, i dunno if I actually got through her a bit this time,
probably not. She been bugging me about my face, since I been breaking out, and
we got into this argument over it and she was like "why dont u care about
how you look, do you think it's because you're ugly?" and I was like,
"well I don't care anymore, because you've told me all my life that I'm fat
and ugly, i've listened to it so long i believe that i am now." To which
she responds "its not my fault you're ugly!" I dunno, in the end I
think we got to the compromise that I would go on a diet and lose weight, but I
told her fine, but she has to let me do it my way, and I don't want to hear her
complain when i come home, to tear me down with her comments because then I just
feel discouraged and I give up because I can never please her. And she said,
fine she'd let it do it my way. Five minutes later, she was telling me to go for
a walk, to do this exercise and that exercise, then when I came back to the
apartment, she called me to tell me I had to go to the gym right this instant.
Yep, she sure is letting me do it my way!
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[2/21/2003 11:42:03 PM | Angeline Huang]
more colorization, this one is a little better than the 2nd i think, but sadly I
still can't repeat the magic from the 1st one, booooo.
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[2/21/2003 9:58:31 PM | Angeline Huang]
well my 2nd attempt at colorization, definitely not as good as the first, which
makes me sad. I hope the 1st colorization wasn't a lucky fluke.
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[2/21/2003 6:08:18 PM | Angeline Huang]
A lot of people have been giving me nice feedback on my colorization, i'm still
kinda in shock over it, the whole *i did that* thing, i'm almost scared too do
another colorization cause I'm afraid this was beginners luck and my second one
won't be as good.
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[2/20/2003 7:09:14 PM | Angeline Huang]
woo, yay. Blog is back up.
Did my first colorization attempt yesterday. And i have to say, i'm very proud
of it. Took the original B&W scan of the picture on the left, and adjusted
settings and colors to make the picture on the right:
This blog is too plain, going to have to make a blog specific layout, hmm, wut
should the theme be, I say the Lakers, cause of the kickass game on Tuesday.
Yep, and prob Kobe specific, cause he is just the man right now, no question.
Shaq who?
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[2/20/2003 7:03:31 PM | Angeline Huang]
I'm literally dying here without a website, so for the time being i'm just going
to temporary move my blog, just so i can post. Cause stuff happens and i can't
post and it kills me!
Don't want to rebuild my entire website yet though, i don't want to unless
absolutely necessary because it's too much time. But i'll probably have a blog
specific layout on here soon, until i get my site back. I hate having plain
stuff now, lol.
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[2/10/2003 2:24:37 PM | Angeline Huang]
Making entries that have nowhere to go... I want my site back!
cause A) I need somewhere to vent out my frustations, talk about my excitements,
etc
and B) this link is in my resume that has gone out to so many employers, so i
need the site back!
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[2/7/2003 2:16:28 PM | Angeline Huang]
Eeek, trailor for How To Deal just came out, apparantly they played it on TRL,
but I don't watch TRL so I missed it, but then it came out online.
Honestly, trailor had some funny moments, and it looks interesting. But I dunno
if I'd watch it if Mandy wasn't in it. I must be getting old, high school films
don't appeal to me as much anymore, just reminds me of how sucky High School
really was I guess. Moving on from that part of my life I guess.
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[2/6/2003 7:55:19 PM | Angeline Huang]
Damn, I got dissed by Mandy. She called me a "fan," ouch that just
hurts. It must be one of those sucky depressing days.
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[2/6/2003 6:01:59 PM | Angeline Huang]
Well i'll be damned, Dawson's Creek got good again. The episode was actually
funny and engaging, that hasn't happened in, geez I don't even remember when
that last happened.
Sadly I have to admit, Pacey & Joey were great in this episode, and even
sadder I'll admit I had tears in my eyes at the end of the episode. Not because
PJ were so great, but with 9 episodes to go, I realized that everything that I
waited for all these years will never be. The only reason I stuck around all
these years was in hopes that someday the writers would finally get the
Dawson/Joey storyline right, but last night was pretty much the nail in the
coffin. With 9 episodes, it'd be unrealistic to have PJ have a few good episodes
and then throw DJ together again, and as much as I want the happy ending, that's
just unrealistic and a cope out and it wouldn't make me happy. Sigh, damn those
writers, if I had known they were always going to end it with pacey/joey I would
have stopped watching 3 years ago. Us poor DJers, we've been abused by these
writers for the past 5 years, watching this dumb tug a war game between the
couple we wanted so much to believe in.
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[2/5/2003 6:02:40 PM | Angeline Huang]
lol, just could resist taking this test.
You are wrist-banging
What
Self-Mutilation Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
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[2/5/2003 2:32:29 PM | Angeline Huang]
Was last night's Smallville hot or what. But dude, she didn't get to remember
anything! But man, that just sux, to finally get to make out with the guy you've
been pining for since forever and not get to remember. Hmm, does that mean I got
to make out with Josh and I didn't get to remember? Oh wait, no, i live in the
real world (well most of the time).
Vis Art History midterm tomorrow, eeeeek. Gotta answer essay questions, 4
questions in just over an hour, when was the last time I had to do that, I don't
even remember.
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[2/4/2003 7:56:13 PM | Angeline Huang]
Changed the website a bit. The chatbox is now in tagboard style, same chatbox,
different style. Like it?
And eeek, 1 more hour to tonite's smallville. The anticipation is killing me.
Oh and my Vis Art History professor watches Joe Millionaire, that amuses me for
some reason.
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[2/2/2003 5:09:11 PM | Angeline Huang]
Had another run in on the phone with my mom again last nite. Just hours after I
have dinner with her, she has to call me, to ask me the same questions she asked
me a couple hours back. And then she starts asking me about my future, my future
eh I never knew the word my applied to me, seeing as how she decides everything
for me. So then I try to explain to her that I will have to get a job when i
graduate and then go back to business school in a couple years because that's
how business majors work, but she couldn't understand, and then threw in
"why dont you go to law school." So i said "because i DON'T want
to be a lawyer." To which she responds "you dont want to be a lawyer,
what do you want then." Anything i WANT to do, she says "nope, not
good enough, nope you can't do that, nope no good."
Why must she feel the need to control me. Why can't she just be there to support
me when I need her. Just let me make my own decisions, if I fail, let me fail,
and be there for me to help me when I fall. Like she started saying "i'll
sell my business and if we can't make it here, we'll go back to Taiwan."
What's this "we" thing, she's still living as a "we," i want
to be ME. Me, myself, my own life, but she won't let me.
Everyday I think about this, and it just makes me want to cry. I feel like i'm
never going to be able to live the life I want to live. Yeah I know she just
wants the best for me, but geez, can't I be allowed to do what I want. Even if
it's the wrong decision, it's my own decision.
People have all these dreams in life, travel the world, go to space, be rich and
famous. My dream, wut I want more than anything else in the world: to have
freedom, to be allowed to make my own decisions and live my own life.
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[2/1/2003 9:57:14 PM | Angeline Huang]
Happy Chinese New Years!
So went to dinner with my mom and her friends, and naturally mom was able to
piss me off. I got there and the first thing she says to me is "why is your
hair messy? did you just wake up? have you been washing your face?" Not
"hi," not "how are you," nope, that would ask too much of
her, to be a kind human being. So naturally I was pissed off, and she kept
asking me questions, and of course i gave her really annoyed short answers, so
she was like "why are you being so mean," so i was like "because
the first thing you say to me is I look like shit!" And my mom's friend
didn't understand why I was in a bad mood so she started blaming it on her
boyfriend, getting mad at him for making a joke with me, and i was like "no
no no, he didn't do anything," but she didn't listen to me, so she kept
yelling at him and I kept trying to say "no, he didnt do anything, it's not
him!" and my mom was yelling "no, he didnt do anything, it was
me" (omg, she actually admitted to doing something wrong). So yeah, wut a
lovely dinner.
updates: added a couple more links, and a couple banners in the misc art
section.
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[2/1/2003 1:45:12 PM | Angeline Huang]
Another spaceship disaster... it's tragic and sad and devastating, but why is it
anytime a disastrous accident happens, immediately people like to assume it's
terrorism. Can't people just grieve without jumping to conclusions?
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