[3/30/2003 11:48:24 PM | Angeline Huang]
yay, server back up. Was scary there for a while, my server went down and my website disappeared for a while.
back at school now, classes start tomorrow. Argh, am I the only one who thinks SB went by too fast?

[3/28/2003 5:21:24 PM | Angeline Huang]
made a matching wallpaper for the layout (which took excruciatingly long on this laptop). Will add it on the left when I get back to school, don't wanna try to work on the layout and have my laptop screw it up.

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[3/27/2003 10:36:54 PM | Angeline Huang]
"1 2 3 4 5...senses working overtime..." argh, the song won't get out of my head! Maybe going to craiggers wasn't such a good idea...nah, I take that back, it was all worth it.
Other than that though, SB has been pretty low key, but I guess after Monday, everything is low key.
Tomorrow we're celebrating Charlotte's 21st birthday though, so that'll be cool, seeing people again and such. People I haven't seen in months.
"and all the world is football shaped, its just for me to kick and say..." This song is never gonna get out of my head, lol. Well at least it's a good song and not something like "can't get u out of my head, lalalalalalalala"

[3/25/2003 12:03:43 PM | Angeline Huang]
details, as promised.
So yesterday, I went to LA for an internship interview, a taping at CBS studios, and meeting up with an old UCSC friend for dinner.
Got up at 8:30, prepared, got ready, packed my drinks and snacks, and hit the road at 9:30. Traffic was pretty good, didn't hit barely any traffic till i got to Santa Monica really, and even then, it was just a little bit at the 405/10 merge. Found the place I was going to just fine, and went up to my interview, not before getting lost around the building of course. So had my interview, they seemed to really like me, and felt I was very qualified and wanted me, which is a good sign. And he said he'd probably let me know in a week, so next step is, if i get it, fight with my mom to let me be in LA for the summer. This is an internship I really want, at a type of company I would really like to work for when I graduate, so I really hope I can make it happen.
So then it was off to CBS studios for the taping, when I got there around 12:30, the security person was like "you're too early, come back at 3:00," so that was like "um...okay..." So I found switchy (board friend) and we hung out at the farmers market, had lunch, and then after lunch around 2:00 we tried to go back again, and they were gonna let us sit at the benches, but then they said "oh no, we cant let u guys in till 3:30, come back later. So I was like "well wut if we come back at 3:30 and there are already people in line." And he said "we're expecting a big crowd, but there won't be anyone in line" (??????), so then i was like "well when I come back, and there are people in line, you know that we're first, right?" and he's like, "yeah, i'll make sure of it." So i was like, okay great. So then switchy and I went to the Grove and shopped around, went to FAO Schwartz and played with toys, took pics. And finally at 3:00, we got in my car and went to CBS studios, where they finally let us in, where of course then there WERE people in line. So i saw the security guy and he was like "i remember you" and switchy and I just sat on the first bench, and we were 4th and 5th in line. So we waited for another hour, playing card games, stupid celebrity games, then Ed and Ben (board people) came up to me around 4:15 and we started talking about the board.
Finally at 4:45 they start collecting our tickets and told us to sit on these different benches/aisles. So then, we took some more pics, and then this guy came and gave us the speech. No cameras, cell phones, going up to the stage and pinching craig or the guests' butts, no autographs, and then the greatest part "we already give out more tickets than we can seat, so not everyone here will get in, and it has nothing to do with first come first serve," to which i was thinking *oh shit, that's not good. we've been here since 12:30, we better get in!* And then he had the different benches go line up at the door, and all the other benches got to go first and we were last to go, and i was like *ahhhh, wut's happening* but then the guy in the red coat lead us through a different side and we got to go in first, *whew*, went through security check, and this is where CBS gets really organized. So they put us into a room and is like "okay everyone just crowd in, there is no line" and i'm thinking *oh heck yes there is a line, there better be a line* so i stayed close to the 3 girls in front of me, who felt the same way. So finally everyone gets through security check and we walk up like 5 flights of stairs, and they make us all stand behind this green line and make us all bunch up like a herd of cows. Some people go the to bathroom and of course when they come back, the just purposely stand in front of the people who were in front of them before, gotta love how organized CBS is. Then they're like "okay you guys can go," to which everyone makes a mad dash to the door, and then the guy yells "single line" and i get in line quickly, course then this jerk who ditched his friends cut in front of me. So we line up at the door and he's screaming to his friends in the back "you're not gonna be on TV!" So i said "at least your friends know wut a line is," course i don't think he heard me.
Finally we get to the stage, which by this time is 5:30, and the guy seats you, and get this, not based on order, but just randomly, so even though we waited so long in line, we didn't get front row seats and our group of 4 got split up into two. Finally everyone is seated, and I recognized this couple who was in the last section back at the original benches, sitting in the front row. Gee, talk about fair. But oh well, I got in, I'm going to hear Mandy sing, i'm happy. Woulda been nice and CBS worked fairly and sat people who were first in line in the front row, but hey, wut's fair in the world, right?
So then this really hyper guy comes out, gets the crowd going, makes jokes, he's actually funnier than craig kilborn in my opinion. And he goes on for like 30 minutes, and i'm seated at the corner, so I kinda have a view of the back entrance of the stage and I see this tall brunette girl with short hair and i said to switchy "look there's Mandy," and she starts waving fanatically, lol. And then I missed half the guy's joke cause I was too busy looking at Mandy. So then he's still making his jokes and then goes "where the heck is Mandy Moore, is she in the building?" and i'm thinking *yes!* and everyone cheers upon hearing Mandy's name. And then after like forever, she walks out on stage, and we all stand and cheer, and turn into raving obnoxious fans. So it seems at these tapings, they do the music first, because the studio is really she turns in circles, makes some funny noises, tries to loosen up. She tells us that we have to bear with her cause she just went to the bathroom and her earpiece fell into the toilet cause she's an utter klutz like that, lol. Yep, that's Mandy alright. So then she starts the song to do a soundcheck, and the music starts, she opens her mouth, and i'm just like , it was awesome! I've never ever heard her live before, and whoever it was that told me she's better live than on CD, was right. She stopped after one verse cause it was just a check and I was about ready to give her a standing ovation.
Then one of the interesting parts of the night, before she does the real thing, the band is tuning their instruments again and such and Mandy is just by the mike relaxing a bit and switchy starts holding up her "i'm with ms. angela" sign and starts waving it fanatically. I was like "put it down, you're going to get us in trouble!" and i was trying to pull her hand down. So she was holding her hand up waving it and i was trying to pull it down and I guess that somehow got Mandy's attention, she looked at us, read the sign and realized who it was maybe?, and smiled, waved, said hi. And not a wave like "oh look, people in the audience are waving, i better wave back" kinda wave, but she like actually looked at us and smiled, and said hi cause she recognized who we were (or maybe it was all in my head, lol). She was around the mike, so i heard her actually whisper hi when she waved and I was kinda just like *whoa, she just said hi to me/us* and I waved back hesitantly and was like "hi..." and then said to switchy "I can't believe you did that!" and like hid my face.
So then they did the real deal, she sang, and it was freaking amazing. Hearing her and seeing her live was just so cool, the crowd was really into it, she was really into it, it was great. Then she finished and went off stage, and the audience guy comes back and starts screaming "mandy moore ladies and gentlement, she's hot! yeah, she's hot!" So they're clearing the stage, which takes like another 15 minutes and he goes back to his jokes and then, somebody brings out 1 drumstick and 2 halves of a drumstick and says "for mandy fans." So the guy i like, i'll be seeing who to give these to later.
So then finally at like 6:15 the show starts, craig comes out, makes his corny jokes, we laugh cause we're suppose to, then finally Mandy comes out, he interviews her, laughs at her, then he pulls out the rolling stone that has Andy in it, and he opens it and says "there's a picture here of this tennis player" and when he showed the picture to the camera, i went "woo!" only, nobody else in the audience went "woo," so that was rather embarrassing, lol. After that I was scared to make anymore cheering noises during the show. So then first commercial break and the audience guy comes out with half a drumstick and waves it and switchy and I stand up and get really obnoxious and in his face, not letting him pass by us until he gives us the drumstick. So he gives it to us, I try to break it in half and after trying so hard, I just can't, so switchy let me keep it. During the break, they play music, and we just sit there listening to the music, and i didn't really wanna keep looking at Mandy to freak her out, and maybe it was just my imagination, but for a second there I thought she looked at me during the break. Probably thinking what the hell i was doing cause I hurt my hip trying to step on the drumstick to break it in half.
Commercial break over, 5 questions, she got all 5 correct, and then her segment is over. Commercial again and the next guy, who i dunno, but you have to be enthusiastic for them anywaiz, so we cheer and stuff, but then course after Mandy Moore, that guy was just a bore, lol. So then they use us as a cheering section for some commercials and stuff, and then the show is over, and they make us leave. As we were exiting the 3 girls that were originally in front of us, were in front of us again, and they were like "we saw Mandy wave to you, does she know you guys." And we're like "oh we're from her message board." And switchy goes "oh, Mandy knows Angela." lol, no she does not
After the show, I drove to Hollywood and Highland (where el Capitan and Kodak theater are), had dinner with Charlene (a friend from SC), caught up, and then took the 5 all the way back home.
Got home in one piece (amazingly), waited forever for the Kilborn show to come on TV, cause I wanted to make that song into a mp3. Hearing it on TV though, it just wasn't the same. It was so much better live, after hearing her live, I dunno how I'm going to go back to the recorded stuff now. She just has to go on tour now, she has to.
So that was it, my LA day, everything turned out almost as I prepared, traffic wasn't bad, interview went well, got to hear Mandy live, had dinner with an old friend, and the coolest thing of all, I got there and back with a full tank of gas, with enough to spare for the drive back to RB tonite.

[3/24/2003 11:50:03 PM | Angeline Huang]
Back from LA, in one piece!
So tired, so I'll have a full recap with details tomorow.
But I just have say this first: Mandy Moore freakin rocked and was freakin awesome live. Man, I so want her to go on tour now, and I want the new album, NOW!

[3/23/2003 9:50:32 PM | Angeline Huang]
Woo! Go Nicole Kidman! Have to say, it was tough this year to choose a winner though, cause I felt all of the actress nominees really deserved to win.
And ugh, Catherine Zeta Jones just had to win, that just sucked. I really just do not like her.
I leave for LA in less than 12 hours!

[3/22/2003 5:46:16 PM | Angeline Huang]
designed another layout
lol, it's spring break and most people celebrating by going out to the beach or something, I relax by making layouts and coding webpages.

also added some buttons for linking:

[3/21/2003 8:55:50 PM | Angeline Huang]
New layout! It's a bit plain, argh I hate creative block.
but hey, at least it isn't Mandy, Josh, or Andy. It's something new.

[3/21/2003 6:05:51 PM | Angeline Huang]
Winter Quarter is OVER!!! FINALLY!
Anywaiz, Ange needs a new layout, any ideas for a new theme?

[3/21/2003 2:40:02 AM | Angeline Huang]
I am so ready for my final...so ready to go bomb it, get it over with, so I can put the hell that is winter quarter 03 behind me once and for all. Remind me to never ever sign up for a class that has a friday final, it's just not good!

[3/20/2003 1:13:41 AM | Angeline Huang]
can't sleep cause well i just can't sleep
can't do homework cause I don't have the add in on my excel
can't study because i don't have the homework to refer to cause i can't do the homework.
so...make art instead

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[3/19/2003 9:09:36 PM | Angeline Huang]
I love the results I get on this test, what type of girlfriend I would be. Oh wait, i'm nobody's girlfriend...

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

[3/19/2003 2:45:01 AM | Angeline Huang]
I'm so ready for spring break, it's taking so long to get here
I'm so tempted to just take my econ final tomorrow night (the teacher gave an option to take it earlier if u want) just so I can get finals over with quicker, but I know I'll definitely fail it for sure, so lucky me, I dont get SB till friday night.
updates: added video clips

[3/18/2003 1:13:20 PM | Angeline Huang]
work break (no, not studying work, actually working work)
Which guy are you destined to have sex with?
brought to you by Quizilla

Jude Law: you like them romantic and British with
beauiful green eyes.

[3/17/2003 11:27:26 PM | Angeline Huang]
Yeah, should be studying, but had a bad day and instead of going out and punching a wall or something, i take it and make art. Why study art history when you can be making art instead

now I really am off to study art history though

[3/17/2003 4:39:49 PM | Angeline Huang]
First final down, 2 more to go. And yea, lets not ask Ange how she did. Rather, Ange is going to rant now.
stupid stupid GE class, I should have taken it P/F, cause now it's just going to bring down my GPA. Getting my homework back, i FINALLY scored a 38.5/40 on one of my homeworks, and i get 1 point off cause i forgot one word, I write a paragraph yet i didn't write one world. Course I got lucky, cause my other scores have been 32, 33, 34. Which turns out to be a very crappy average for my homework scores. It's a GE, so why on earth are the TAs being so anal?! But then fine, if they wanna be anal go head, but then the professors could at least curve the class then, but noooo, they dunno how to do that. And then I think I pretty much failed that final, so I'm praying I even get a C in that class, which is stupid cause it should be an easy A. Damnit, I should have taken it pass/fail, at least then it wouldn't bring down my already low GPA. It's not like i NEED the class because it's just a GE, so there was is no point in having it as a grade, especially when it's just going to hurt me. Well at least the hell is over, unless that is I don't get a C in that class and I have to take it over again and my GPA will really be shitty then, God I might just have to shoot myself if that happens.

[3/16/2003 6:30:06 PM | Angeline Huang]
hmmm...interesting

Violent Drunk.
"Are yoush looking at meee?"
You may start off touch-feely, but you usually end
up offended for one reason or another. This
can lead to verbal arguments or all out fist
fights.


What Kind of Drunk are You?
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[3/16/2003 12:32:43 PM | Angeline Huang]
count it on blogger to lose an extremely long post i made about how i been feeling. Should I even bother trying it all again, do I even remember it?
I thought I lived in San Diego, CA, so why has it been raining nonstop for the past 2 days. Not that nice weather would brighten my mood anywaiz.
I've just felt so unmotivated, unmotivated to study for finals, all quarter long i was unmotivated to go to class, which is why im in a bad situation with my finals. Maybe it's cause im getting older now and realizing that next year, I will have to start actually leading a real adult life, and yet I feel like i'm going nowhere or what i'm doing all this for. I mean I have things I want to do, but will I actually get to accomplish them? And I mean passion is one thing, but talent is another.
Sometimes I just feel like nobody cares, not that they should, people have their own problems to deal with, why should they bother with mine, when I don't even know what my problems are. It's not even that i have a hate the world attitude, but rather I just feel empty inside. Sometimes I don't even know what i'm feeling, like I have no feelings. And I have trouble sleeping at night, because everynight before it's time for me to go to sleep, I'm plagued by so many things, which keeps me awake, unable to sleep, which then makes me tired the next day. Sometimes I just feel like im a really screwed up person, and that I don't think like a normal person should. Now all I see is the bad in things, it's hard for me to see the joy in things, like my mom is leaving soon for 2 weeks, i should be overjoyed, but i'm not, cause i just think "well she'll be back anywaiz." What's the point in being positive when I feel like my life is just going to lead this path I don't want anywaiz, and it's not going to turn out good anywaiz. Is there really a point in fooling myself with positivity about it?
sigh, i dunno, maybe it's because I havent had any sugar for the past 2 weeks because of this diet i'm on and my body is going through withdrawals, who knows.

[3/15/2003 12:21:14 AM | Angeline Huang]
Last day of classes, woohoo! Now on to my finals, I'll just be happy if I can pass some classes. This quarter was not a good quarter for me, not good at all. Gotta get my act together, get through these finals, and do a heck of a lot better next quarter. Sigh, well was gonna post something else, but I think i'll leave that for another night.
updates: added pictures from winter sleepover

[3/12/2003 11:14:50 PM | Angeline Huang]
added in a bunch of artwork i've done these last few weeks when I didn't have a site to put stuff up on.
updated sections: Wallpapers: Movies, TV Shows
added sections: Vector, Colorizations
now to work on the videos section...

[3/12/2003 12:17:25 AM | Angeline Huang]
I hate school, I hate school, i hate 10th week, i hate finals. I mean i hated school before, but i hate it more after this week. Because of my lame final project that i've spent 6 hours on today, I missed getting to do something really cool today and not fulfilling something on my "list." Story of my life, miss opportunities because of life circumstances getting in the way, whether it be crappy timing or my mother.

[3/11/2003 2:48:44 PM | Angeline Huang]
Why do I torture myself thinking of missed opportunities and reading up on what I missed? Story of my life, always missing things, too maybe "shouldas, wouldas, couldas," you would think i would learn after what happened a couple months ago.

[3/11/2003 3:40:04 AM | Angeline Huang]
3:30 am and still not asleep cause I dunno, i have trouble sleeping at night it seems. I'm always thinking about stuff, and it always happens at times like these, thinking about my life, wut other people in the world are doing, what their life is like, why my life is the way it is, will my life ever change, etc.
Anywaiz, so im going through my links and it seems Kyle's server is working again. Haha, lovely, i go out and get a domain and the minute i get it, have it all up and running, Kyle's server is running again. Oh live is just full of ironies, maybes i should have named this sereneirony.net after all.

[3/11/2003 12:26:38 AM | Angeline Huang]
Guess who has her own domain, up, running, all done in PHP. Me of course! I'm still in awe, i own my own domain, i know it might not seem like much to some people, but to me, it's cool. And now I even know PHP. I know the website is a bit bland, but i just wanted something up and running. I have a bunch of new pics and artwork that i'll be adding this week.

oh and yes, you can thank Matt for the layout idea. And for everyone who keeps asking me where the picture from my layout came from, it's from the new movieline magazine, scans here

[3/10/2003 11:31:38 AM | Angeline Huang]
yippee, i can get to my control panel via split-harmony.net now, which means the connection between my domain and webhost seems to have been made, so that means i can be up and running soon! (after i finish my super long and annoying final project that is).

[3/9/2003 11:48:48 PM | Angeline Huang]
You know what sux? Going to a lunch party and having to force yourself not to cry.
My mom and I went to this lunch party for my former violin teacher's birthday and honestly, sometimes I wonder if my mom purposely says things to spite me and hurt me...
so my mom starts talking to this lady and she's like "oh how many kids do u have" and the lady goes "none," and even thought i'm sitting right there and she knows it, she says to the lady, "oh, u're so lucky. life is so much better without a kid."
Then I had to sit through my mom talking about how the asian parenting way is the right way, and went on to tell stories of how she enforced rules on me and raised me and shit, meanwhile I sat there trying to force myself not to cry as the painful memories hit me, and not so much painful memories, but just more confirmation that I'm never going to be able to lead the life I want and that she'll pretty much make it so that she gets her way and I don't get mine.
Yea, so that was my day, it sucked, and just more confirmation that I'm a screwed up and very unhappy individual. I honestly don't know when was the last time I was this depressed, which probably isn't the best state of mind to go into heading into 10th week and finals.

[3/8/2003 2:04:07 PM | Angeline Huang]
I am now the proud owner of www.split-harmony.net yippee skippy.
now to start getting a webhost and get that working and be back up with a website on my own domain.
and oh yea, u know do final projects, study for finals, you know, all that stuff.

[3/8/2003 12:50:49 PM | Angeline Huang]
alright, i think it's down to three now:
split-harmony
hopeless-wonder
sereneirony

i like all three though, so, which one???

[3/8/2003 1:21:26 AM | Angeline Huang]
ayudame. need to come up with a domain name, help me decide!
be nice and leave a comment on which name you like please
www.sweet-affinity.net
www.split-harmony.net
www.forever-wind.com
www.sereneirony.net
www.sweet-antipathy.net
www.illusioned-faith.net
www.hopeless-cynic.com
www.quixotichope.net
www.hopeless-wonder.net
www.aimingtobreathe.com
www.visualinsanity.net

why is this so hard?

[3/6/2003 12:58:49 PM | Angeline Huang]
AHHHHhhhhhh , seeing this made me want to cry:
ZOOMING ALONG: Can't say Britney Spears doesn't aim high. The pop princess is hoping she can lure either Josh Hartnett or Mark Wahlberg as her co-star for the upcoming NASCAR flick she's starring in (and producing) this spring.
Britney...Josh...nooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Also, why doesn't Josh wanna be Superman! I wanna see the boy in tights! Though he would have to bulk up a bit first.

[3/5/2003 5:25:16 PM | Angeline Huang]
DDR just told me i burned 200 calories, but i don't feel that i did... hmmmm

[3/5/2003 5:22:02 PM | Angeline Huang]
why can't I have a server that work?
so, for now i'm moving to my school server, just the blog.

[3/4/2003 12:59:41 AM | Angeline Huang]
What's your DDR theme?

Boom Boom Dollar

Supportive, understanding and the perfect friend! You have an open mind and a compassionate spirit. You've got a great attitude and your friends place a lot of trust in you. Your idea of the perfect relationship would be one that is equal on all grounds.

[3/2/2003 10:08:53 PM | Angeline Huang]
how disgustingly cute, it's depressing to read about disgustingly cute couples, reminds me of how lonely and single I am

[3/1/2003 11:44:21 PM | Angeline Huang]
just came back from dinner with my mom and her friends, and she started talking about how difficult her life was, and how without me, she could have retired when she was 45 and be happy and financially secure, etc. I sometimes wonder if she realizes i'm right there when she starts saying stuff like that.
But as she was talking about me as a little kid, I was thinking back and realized that in essense I was the baby of the family. When my mom came to the US first and left me in Taiwan for my grandma to raise me, my aunts and uncles, and older cousins all had a hand in raising me, so in essence I was everyone's little baby, and hence everyone's little dream and hope. I dunno, thinking about that during dinner, it just made me sadder. Cause I just feel like i have all this pressure on me, and i'm going to disappoint everyone if I dont do what they expect of me.
My mom was talking about all the stuggles she had to go through when she first moved here, since she was by herself, and i mean as stupid and airheaded as my mother can be, she is a strong woman in the sense that she's been able to survive here, raise a kid, with a very minimal understanding of english, even though she still won't admit that she's a needy woman. And I guess part of the reason she's so controlling is because she's afraid i'm going to struggle as well, so she's trying to make sure I don't. But in doing so, she's just making me really unhappy, her lack of support in me just makes me struggle with my inner emotions more than any kind of physical struggle I have to go through. And what if I do want to struggle, what if the first few years out of college I want to "toughen it out," I think i'm a lot stronger than she gives me credit for (i mean look at everything I've had to put up with) and what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?
I watched about 3/4th of Riding In Cars with Boys today, and I started tearing up in the end, when the kid and his mom were having a fight. The mom was telling the kid that she was a great mom and that he's the most normal person she knows and the kid was telling her how unhappy he was, and how he feels he can't leave her because he has to help take care of her and be around for her to blame, and how he feels he's her mistake that she's been living with all these years, the reason why her life sux so much. And she yelled "does this job ever end?!" and he said "you call it a job" and she said "well yea, what do you think, it's a calling?" And I dunno, that whole sequence between them just got to me, and i started tearing up, it struck a cord I guess *shrug*

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